i miss you.
i didn't really realise the extent of how much it was untill you had to leave.
what i wouldn't give to stay at your house, cuddle till it's bedtime and then wake you up as soon as i do.
i just want to stay at your house whenever i feel like it again, and always be able to.
i want a bedtime kiss, i want you to tuck me in.
i even want the simplest forms of you, the ones that aren't a part of you, yet i associate them with you, like a glass of water from your jug in the fridge.
it's silly i know, i'm just missing you, i feel like we haven't seen eachother or even talked properly in days.
i know we most likely have, i'm just a sook.

ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS TEGAN & SARA, MITCHELL AND SCHOOL.
yeah, i'm okay with that, but maaan how can i be so happy! haha.
you know what would reeeally tickle my fancy...?
if i started losing weight too! hahaha.
it's just a goal, all my other goals are being fulfilled.

my life is getting so good that i want to cry, something bad will happen soon right...?
i can't feel this amazing without a catch.



tegan and sara are coming to australia.
i'm so content with everything.
this is great.

school is okay this year.
in three terms... that'll be a different story.
hello nerdy tianna, catchya later year 12 friends.
and then... maybe... goodbye mitchell, see you every weekend haha.
aaah next year will be a disaster.
thank jesus i only have to last till a bit before october next year.
it seems like such a long time, but it will come around quickly.
i hope, i don't want this year or the next one to go on forever.
i want to live in melbourne with my amazing boyfriend while i attend university and go out on the weekends.
i want to work part time and save most of my money so i can buy a house oneday.
i want to drive around in melbourne on my green p's while listening to tegan and sara and raging at the traffic.
i want to see maddison every week and hear all of her stories.
i want to get a tattoo of something amazing, i want it to be worth it and feel as if i have waited forever.
i want to go for a run or a walk early every morning with mitchell, and sleep in seedy as hell on the weekends.
i want to have the occaisional cigarette, never more then one or two, and never be addicted.
i want to make a whole new set of friends, ones who judge everyone less and stick up for me as if i was a little sister.
i want to be able to go back to albury and see the reminants of my old life there, and see my family every month.
i want to have the long phone calls to my mother, father, nanny & gg, aunties and uncles where i end up balling my eyes out just because i'm not there.
i want to have my family come to my house and see where i live, i want them to be proud.
i want to do these next to years two the best of my ability, i won't get a second chance.