i'm over it.
i want you here.

31st of october.
halloween.
the albury show.
i wish mitchell was going, but he can't.
i hate that.

well i gave blood,
first time it's ever made me feel like crap.
i have really low iron levels, i shouldn't have given blood today.

tomorrow is a new day.
time for a party, a party with an unplanned ending,
who knows where i will sleep.
i am keen though.
it will be good.
and i need to see mitch, i feel better when he is around.
or even when he calls me, or mentions my name.
ah i've turned into a pussy.
i used to hate holding hands, kissing in public & all those things.
being cute was for alone time.
but now, all i want to do is hold his hand or kiss him, no matter where i am, or who is watching.
i post stupid quizes that almost speak entirely of him, i have to force myself to not answer it wholly based on that boy.
jesus christ tianna, you're like a schoolgirl again.



fuck you, i can be a faggot if i want.

the albury show is back.
mm yes, it's back.
the one thing i can say i've been to every single year since birth.
my one routine thing.
hopefully this year will be good, all the people i want are going.
unless mitch doesn't show, then well, eh i want him to go.
i've never had a boy escourt me to the show.
my last boyfriend was too much of an arsehole too, and wouldn't do it unless i brought him alcohol,
but mitch isn't an arsehole, he has exams yatta, yatta.



the lights.
the sounds.
the people.
the carnies.
oh how i love circus people.

today,
today was nice.
i did go down the street with the intention of giving blood though.
i guess that didn't happen, haha, tomorrow.
mitch doesn't want to give blood, i don't understand people who don't want to.
neither does maddi, or anyone really.
gaby will do it, she's the best.
it's 2 seonds of slight discomfort to help save 3 peoples lives.
which means my blood will be pumping around their system for a few days.
i think that's amazing, that i can help someone who actually needs help.
without sacrificing body parts or other things.
i feel so good after giving blood, i think everyone should do it haha.
1 in 30 people have given blood once or more in their lives.
i think thats silly, as soon as it's time to give blood again i'm right on it, i stick my arm out and wait for that needle.
aah, imagine what the world would be like if everyone was like me hahaha.
bad, is the answer.





give blood.

my father brought me this today
the piece of beautiful, high quality junk i've been waiting for.
it's now the one thing in my room i will lock away haha.
it's what i've wanted for so long.
ever since i was a little scenie, begging for a camera to take little posed photographs.
wasting memory.
but they never brought me what i wanted.
untill now, damn not having the need to take pictures of myself all the time for myspace now.
ahhh i guess it's too chunky to do so anyway.
it's a beautiful camera though, i'm very happy.

i cannot wait for this movie to come out.
i will be watching it the day it comes out.
no questions.



the sexiest men alive are in it.
ahhh, johnny, heath, jude.
yum.

if only mitch was an actor.
hahahahahaha.

i really think my boyfriend is the most amazing man on the planet.
this weekend has been the best one i've had in a long time,
and we pretty much did nothing.
he was cute again, and i loved every second.
ahhhh, words cannot describe what i feel for him.
he's beautiful, and i'm very glad i have him.