i never feel one emotion
i don't think i know how to do so.
everyday is becoming a repeat
every week is another wasted
yet i never know how to solve this.
find something new? something different?
maybe that could be enough
but, the only way i know how to change lyes within my looks.
get a job, take your piercings out, go to school, dye your hair;
daily thoughts that i never listen to.
i don't know how to listen
to take something in
life doesn't seem like a hard, unachievable rat race to me.
life is easy, everlasting and speedy to me.
the day when i see the world like everyone else does will be the day i am no longer myself
i believe the reality of this world might be my downfall.
i've had tastes of reality before, but never the whole spoonful,
and i am scared to see what happens next.
it's a strange thought to think that everything in my life could suddenly come crashing down,
and i might just not be able to keep my head above the water.
i do not mean this in any kind of unstable way;
this is just merely a thought in my head.
i do not want to see the world the way you do
i do not want to feel the way you do
i do not want to realise who i am
or that people in the world aren't what i think.
i do not want reality to destroy me.
