confess it all

feeling happy all the time is not something i'm so good at now.
i'm sad because my parents brought white bread... what the fuck? that's not a reason to get sad.
but i can't help it, it's all i can really feel right now.
other things have taken a dampener on my night aswell, like my amazing talent at being a huge hypocrite.
i get hurt by the stupidest things, and i hold grudges. i can't help it now.
it's my fault i'm like this i guess, but i can't see everything through rose colour glasses like i used to.
my optimism is slowly going down the drain, and my love for everyone is disappearing.
i thought i was better, but tonight proves i'm not.
the only time i'm fully happy is when i'm around people, or in a good mood.
although, this could just be my 'week before period stage' talking.
who knows.

last night some words really hurt me, i can't get them out of my head.
i try so hard, and i feel like it's done nothing now.
i'm hurt, really hurt. i hate how i replay things over and over.
and take things to heart, but i'm so sensitive, i always have been.

last night was good, but the last half hour isn't what i wanted or saw happening.
i just feel like... eh i just feel hurt.

on the brighter side, it'll be sad to see tahlia and dave go... hopefully one day i'll see them again.
hopefully they won't change too much.

i'm suuuuuuuuch a hypocrite!