confess it all

today, maddison sat me down and made me watch 'the boat that rocked'
it wasn't all that hard
i'm usually up for a movie or two
especially one with bill nighy starring.
i don't want to ruin it for you if you are yet to see it
but it's basically a movie of rebelion or power of the people
much like v for vendetta, another of my favourite movies.
throughout the movie i couldn't help but think about what it was like to be one of them
to fight for something so strongly and willingly
i can't really say i've ever fought for anything
but would i if i was in one of their positions?
i think the answer is no.
i am a coward.
i don't think i'm ever really this honest with anything i say
but i do not think i would have the guts to risk my life for something i've created
or believe in strongly.
maybe i think too little of myself
and when push comes to shove i really would take a bullet.
honestly i believe i'm far too afraid of death.
who knows, maybe i am a better person then i give myself credit for
but i sincerly think not.
compassion is not something i have
history is something i'll never be apart of
i can see myself living in the shadows.
there's really nothing left in the world to achieve
humanity is at it's best
and worst.
the most typical phrase of all mankind;
'i am just one person, what can i do?'
it runs through my head.
i am only one person.
i have only one life.
this could mean one of two things;
1. yes, i am only one person but i can achieve anything i want, i will only live once.
therefore i should make each and every day count yes?
or,
2. i am just one person, there are over 21 billion people on this planet.
there is nothing i can do to help without power, which is something i don't have.
yes, i will only live once, but there is nothing i can do.
see, equal arguements
i assume over five sixths of the planet has thought of these things
i cannot be the only person to question.