today,
today was nice.
i did go down the street with the intention of giving blood though.
i guess that didn't happen, haha, tomorrow.
mitch doesn't want to give blood, i don't understand people who don't want to.
neither does maddi, or anyone really.
gaby will do it, she's the best.
it's 2 seonds of slight discomfort to help save 3 peoples lives.
which means my blood will be pumping around their system for a few days.
i think that's amazing, that i can help someone who actually needs help.
without sacrificing body parts or other things.
i feel so good after giving blood, i think everyone should do it haha.
1 in 30 people have given blood once or more in their lives.
i think thats silly, as soon as it's time to give blood again i'm right on it, i stick my arm out and wait for that needle.
aah, imagine what the world would be like if everyone was like me hahaha.
bad, is the answer.





give blood.

my father brought me this today
the piece of beautiful, high quality junk i've been waiting for.
it's now the one thing in my room i will lock away haha.
it's what i've wanted for so long.
ever since i was a little scenie, begging for a camera to take little posed photographs.
wasting memory.
but they never brought me what i wanted.
untill now, damn not having the need to take pictures of myself all the time for myspace now.
ahhh i guess it's too chunky to do so anyway.
it's a beautiful camera though, i'm very happy.

i cannot wait for this movie to come out.
i will be watching it the day it comes out.
no questions.



the sexiest men alive are in it.
ahhh, johnny, heath, jude.
yum.

if only mitch was an actor.
hahahahahaha.

i really think my boyfriend is the most amazing man on the planet.
this weekend has been the best one i've had in a long time,
and we pretty much did nothing.
he was cute again, and i loved every second.
ahhhh, words cannot describe what i feel for him.
he's beautiful, and i'm very glad i have him.

i'd like to be thin like them.
but i wonder if i was, would that make me more attractive to people?
girls with curves and 'real bodies' seem to be the new anorexic, or as some people see it 'beautiful'.
i love a girl with curves.
but underneath that shirt is there a couple rolls and some saggy tits?
or are they trim and fit like it should be.
being overweight isn't sexy.
and that's how i see myself.

i want people to want to take pictures of me,
for people to think i am beautiful on every part of my body.
i want you to love my look.
even if i do not.

hating on short hair.
i want this back.